Stop being so hard on yourself!

I'm reading all these posts from like 8 years ago and it's always the same.  I say I'm fat, I need to do better, then I stop posting for a long time, then I start saying I'm fat again, etc etc etc.  My goals were always about looks and not about health.  Well my new goal is to get ripped.  Like I wanna be buff.  Don't care about weight, just want to be STRONG and able to run like 5 miles 2-3x a week.  I think this is doable. 
Currently I can't even do a push up, so I have a lot of room for improvement. 
I would LOVE to wake up early and do some yoga to set a daily intention.  I think this would also make me stress eat less through the day (need to work on my relationship with food-food is something to nourish my body and doesn't really serve much else).  I have a hard time waking up though so it will take effort to get me to this point.
I want to run or strength train 30 min - 45 min a day every day. 

Those are my plans. It is a blizzard today so I need to put on my boots and walk down to the gym.

yogas

Did yoga home day 11 today and she did crow and Scott did it with me and now he said he's obsessed with crow.
Walked a bunch at work today.
Ate keto level carbs today (45g) but haven't been eating good lately so def not in keto yet.  Scott bought supplies for chocolate chip cookies at TJs today because we're supposed to get 8 inches of snow so baking cookies are fun.  We are going to join the gym tomorrow so that's sad because it's $$$ but we also spent $$$$$$$$ on reservations to Alinea in March.  I'm excited but that means no eating out between now and then basically even though we found a good poke place by my Henry Ford office. 
Goals for tomorrow: run C25k week 4 day 2 (will move on to week 5 next week) on treadmill at gym and do yoga day 12 and stay keto carbs, but we are having curry with pineapple in it so that may be tough.
Goals for next week: Run 3x (week 5), do some strength training 3x (may just be yoga), keto x 7 days (hopefully start actually getting to ketosis next week.  Last time I lost a ton of weight first 2 weeks and then stopped, but plan to keep it up until next trip)

Long term goals:
Broad Street Run (I won't be ready. AAAAAAAGH)
Detroit 1/2 marathon-Oct
Start eating plant based 2 days/week

3 slow miles

I don't know why I've been so tired lately. Did 3 slow miles. Guess it's better than zero miles.

2 miles on treadmill

Been feeling really worn out lately. Wanted to do a long run on Saturday but was too tired. The 2 miles today was tough. Got new Brooks sneakers but they hurt my left ankle. Wanted to try a different brand because my right knee has been achy. Ran 2 and walked a bunch because I wanted to finish watching Marvelous Mrs. Maisel. Seriously the only thing getting me through treadmill running!

5k on treadmill

Not too shabby! I really want to do 5 on Saturday. I think I can! My right knee is a little achy, though. I'm icing it right now so hopefully it stops acting silly. 

2.75 and walked some

Went to gym to do 2 miles but did 2.75! I wanted to go further, but I started getting a cramp under my boobs and couldn't breathe because of it. I think it was gas. Also, I wore leggings that I bought last summer and they kept sliding down my butt. Very annoying. Extra annoying because when my leggings slide, they take my underwear with them. It's very awkward sticking your arm down your pants while running at the gym to try and pull your undies back up. Guess I'm glad I got my new under armour leggings. Need to do laundry though. I really want to run 5 miles this weekend. Feeling discouraged

about 2.2 miles today

Went out today after I got home from church and teaching piano. I hadn't had lunch yet, but didn't want to eat right before running. Just before I got out the door, though, one of my girls (who was supposed to be napping) started wailing like she had the worst nightmare ever. I had to get her, and then she fell asleep on me for an hour. When your baby falls asleep on you, you're not supposed to move because....super cute and they don't do that a lot, and also, before you know it, they'll be teenagers who want nothing to do with you. Anyway, I digress. By the time I got out to run, I was super hungry. Felt good while running, but after mile 2, I started getting a little lightheaded. I guess it wasn't too bad for a first run since stomach bug. Oh yeah. The stomach bug happened. Not pretty.